We are the Millers

If you haven't already seen it on Instagram or Facebook, we are moving!!   We found this house a while ago but we wanted to wait until we had the keys in our hands before we shared the news.  It needs work:  a new kitchen, a new bathroom, a lot of paint and clean up.  When it's done it's going to be an amazing home.   We are so excited! We did quite a bit of work this past weekend already and we tried to have some fun while we were working.     We don't really have a target move in date because we are still uncovering things with the house but I'm hoping to move by the end of June.    I can't wait to get everything done and show some before and after pictures.   We really needed this change in our lives and we are so happy that we will be able to call this place our home!    

Many nights when I close my eyes for bed, I flash back to the day I went in for the ultrasound, to the second the words came out of the doctor's mouth.  'Unfortunately the baby's heart has stopped beating.' This is what haunts me most nights.  The news.  The second I realized that everything was about to change.  The second I realized I lost my son. They say that situations like this either make or break a relationship.  I agree with this. My husband has been more supportive, more emotionally available, more helpful in general.  He has assured me that he will never lose patience with me and so far he hasn't.  He has talked with me about all of this even when he didn't really want to.  He has gone to work every day and continued to work hard for us, never getting a pause in all of this. It certainly has not broken our relationship.  It has brought us to a whole new level of closeness.  We ...

Mother's Day was a little different for me this year.  I wasn't sure how I was going to feel this year.  While it was a good day, a fun day spent with my family, there was also that little nagging sadness for Colson. Not having him here with me for Mother's Day was hard.  But we still had a good day. We went to church first.  We went to the earlier service because we knew we had a lot to do.  Ashlyn loves going to church.  She loves that she gets to play with the kids in her classroom.  Bryan isn't usually as happy and he almost always cries when we drop him off.  On Mother's Day, he did not cry. After church, we visited the Lancaster outlets to get me a purse.  My husband doesn't do gifts well.  He's never been creative about them and he almost always asks me what I want instead of trying to do something on his own.  It's not an easy thing for me to accept because I'm so creative when it comes to gifts but its ok....