We are the Millers

September 23, 2015 It's your due date. Maybe you would have come already like both your brother and sister did.  Maybe you would have come today so we could have celebrated your birthday and your great grandmother's birthday.  Maybe you would have been more stubborn and come late. It doesn't matter.  You're not coming. We are coming up on the six month mark.  A half year.  It seems like such a long time. And yet I still cry for you.  I've cried for you every day this week.  I still have moments of total sadness.  I still see pregnant mamas, baby announcements, newborns and get emotional, angry, jealous. I still feel bitter. I think I always will.  I think deep down the sadness and bitterness will never go away.  And that's ok. Your heart beat.  Your legs kicked.  Your fingers wiggled.  You lived. And then you died. And I'm allowed to be bitter about that. I'll always wonder who you would have been....

Well, we moved.  It only took us three months to get our house almost done so we could move in.  We really didn't want to move in until everything little thing was done but it just wasn't possible.  So, while we still have a few small projects to complete, the house is looking great and we moved in. I will be posting a lot of before and after photos on Instagram so if you don't already follow me and you want to, my user name is vmiller0918.    Of course we are already making future plans for the house  I'd love to add an addition with another bedroom or two and another bathroom.  My husband is also planning to build a beautiful pond and waterfall in our back yard.  For now, we are just happy to be living in our new home.  The kids seem to be enjoying it as well.   ~   We had two not so awesome things happen within the first two weeks of us living in this new house.  The hardwood floors are great but they are al...

Doctor's stats: Weight 28lbs 2oz (50th %) Height 37 inches (97th %) Head 19.25 inches (50th %) The basics? Diapers - Size 5 Clothing - 24 month and 2T, some 3T PJs Food - Everything and anything! Sleeping - Through the night! Teeth - All of them! Words - Lots! Favorite toy - cars, trucks, any of his sister's toys Well, I'm pretty sure my prediction of having a tall boy is going to come true.  The doctor walked in and said, 'wow, he's going to be really tall!'.  Yes, I know.  They say if you multiply the height at age 2 by 2, that's how tall your kid will be.  Bryan will be 6'2.  That's fine by me. I can't believe how tall he is.  Ashlyn was 37.5 inches tall at her 3 year appointment and this boy is 37 inches tall at his 2 year appointment!  It won't be long before he towers over his big sister!  The doctor did mention something about his weight but being that he is so tall, he didn't really seem too...