Dear Nan,
I'm so saddened by your passing that I feel the need to dedicate today's letters to you only. You passed away on Sunday, just after I left from visiting you. While I'm glad I got to see you one more time, I am haunted by the fact that if I had just stayed a little bit longer, you wouldn't have been alone. It was hard to see you unresponsive and struggling to breath. It was hard see you, once the big traveler, singer, piano player, in that way. But I knew I needed to see you. I honestly wasn't expecting you to pass so quickly. I wanted to call the Chaplin before we left but thought I would have more time. I thought maybe I'd come back the next day and call on him then but I was out of time.
Even though your mind wandered the past few years and you didn't really know who many of your family members were anymore, you were always happy to see people. Your face always brightened and you always smiled from ear to ear. You always said 'hiya honey, how are ya.' You knew us but you just couldn't remember us. I don't think you really understood that my kids were your great grandchildren but you were still always so happy to see them. You loved kids. I'm so glad you got to meet my son on your birthday in October. I'm sad that you won't meet my future children. You had the biggest heart and I love how much you traveled. I have all of your pictures and it was so cool to go through them all and see where you have been. I also love all of the old photos of you. Your 1947 yearbook is awesome.
Today we hold your funeral and lay you to rest. I think that I need to believe that you are in a better place in order to get through this. Death scares me and I'm not really sure what I believe about it. But I really do hope you are at peace, in no pain and smiling down on us.
Doris June Foreman
October 19, 1929 - December 8, 2013
Another one of my sister and I
I'm so saddened by your passing that I feel the need to dedicate today's letters to you only. You passed away on Sunday, just after I left from visiting you. While I'm glad I got to see you one more time, I am haunted by the fact that if I had just stayed a little bit longer, you wouldn't have been alone. It was hard to see you unresponsive and struggling to breath. It was hard see you, once the big traveler, singer, piano player, in that way. But I knew I needed to see you. I honestly wasn't expecting you to pass so quickly. I wanted to call the Chaplin before we left but thought I would have more time. I thought maybe I'd come back the next day and call on him then but I was out of time.
Even though your mind wandered the past few years and you didn't really know who many of your family members were anymore, you were always happy to see people. Your face always brightened and you always smiled from ear to ear. You always said 'hiya honey, how are ya.' You knew us but you just couldn't remember us. I don't think you really understood that my kids were your great grandchildren but you were still always so happy to see them. You loved kids. I'm so glad you got to meet my son on your birthday in October. I'm sad that you won't meet my future children. You had the biggest heart and I love how much you traveled. I have all of your pictures and it was so cool to go through them all and see where you have been. I also love all of the old photos of you. Your 1947 yearbook is awesome.
Today we hold your funeral and lay you to rest. I think that I need to believe that you are in a better place in order to get through this. Death scares me and I'm not really sure what I believe about it. But I really do hope you are at peace, in no pain and smiling down on us.
Doris June Foreman
October 19, 1929 - December 8, 2013
I love her yearbook. She was in the Glee club, which doesn't surprise me at all, and she played volleyball, which does surprise me a little!
That's my sister and I with my grandmother
Another one of my sister and I
Oh vanessa - I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. T&P your way.
ReplyDeleteThis was an emotional letter, rightfully so. I think it's amazing you have her yearbook she must have been really great at keeping track of things. She looks beautiful and I always appreciate someone who radiates positivity which is evident that she did. Nan will live on in your heart, body and soul xoxo
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