We are the Millers

Day 31:  A vivid memory. Before my daughter was born, the doctor had requested that I do a 24 hour urine collection so they could test for protein.  My protein had been particularly high and they wanted to see what was going on.  So I took off of work on a Tuesday to stay at home all day and pee in a jug.  It was so much fun. On Thursday, the results were in and my protein was way high.  So the OB had me come into the office that afternoon for a check up.  I was around 38 weeks so I knew there was a small chance that he could me to delivery but I didn't really think it would happen. So I left work early and went home to shower and make sure I had my bag packed just in case.  When we got to the doctor's office, my OB basically said my protein and blood pressure were too high and I was swelling too much.  It was time to induce.  Um what? No we have two weeks left and we have no kitchen.  We had decided to remodel our kitchen ...

  Dear Baby Girl,  oh my little schmuffin.  You have been such an awesome little girl lately.  I don't know if the warmer weather and being outside has been keeping you all cheery or what but you have been so much fun!  You will have ton of fun tomorrow too because you will have a lot of little friends to play with at Mommy's birthday party! Dear Baby #2, you know, I really like to feel you kick but this sudden need to kick me in the bladder causing me to feel like I'm going to pee in my pants is just not cool.  Yea so if you could just go ahead and stop that, that would be great. (bonus points if you guess the movie reference here) Dear Husband, I know that you are trying really hard to make sure that my birthday is special and I really appreciate that.  I will do my best to let you do your thing and not complain about anything that I may have done differently!  Happy Birthday to me!! (tomorrow) Dear Birthday, could yo...

Day 30:  React to this term:  Letting go. There are so many things that I need to learn to let go of. Control.  I wouldn't call my self a control freak but I do like to be in control.  I like to host events because I like them to be done my way.  I have a hard time if someone else is the planner.  For example, my 30th birthday is this Saturday and my husband isn't exactly a good planner.  I have been having a lot of trouble letting go and allowing him to plan this party, which I'm sure pisses him off. And if it's not bad enough that I stick my nose where it doesn't belong, then I have to make sure I point out all of the things that I would have done differently.  It's hard for me to just relax and let it be. Fear.  I have been cursed with this overwhelming fear that something bad is going to happen.  To me.  To my husband.  To my daughter.  Doesn't really matter.  The fear is always there.  My hu...

Day 29:  Five songs or pieces of music that speak to you or bring back memories. TLC - Waterfalls     Yes I know this is an odd choice but there is a story here.  This song was released in 1995.  My husband and I met in 1995.  Yes, we were quite young and what did youngsters have to talk about back then?  Music.  Somehow we go on the subject of this video and about how cool we both thought it was.  That's how our story begins. Sarah McLachlan - I Love You     This is our wedding song.  We had both loved this song long before it became our wedding song but once we finally decided to get married, we both knew without a doubt that this was our song.     Carrie Underwood and Vince Gill - How Great Thou Art     Regardless of what this song means, if you are not completely moved by this, there is something seriously wrong with you.  I could listen to this over and ov...

This week, I'm saying so what if...   The highlight of my Memorial Day weekend was buying Baby Girl a new car seat.  I finally caved and Baby Girl is now forward facing.  Um....she sorta loves it. I am super duper excited for this weekend's 3D ultrasound.  I can't wait to verify that this is indeed a little man and see is cute little alien face. I'm also kind of excited for my 30th birthday party.  I'm still freaking out over the age thing but it's going to be a beautiful day for a party! Out of the 50 or so people we invited to said birthday party, only about 20 have RSVP'd.  What's the deal people?  Am I not likable? I ordered my own birthday gift.  Husband just isn't computer savvy to make it happen. My June calendar is crazy full already. The two girls I liked on The Voice went home last night!  I didn't watch it yet but I saw the results this morning.  What the hell? Amanda Bynes is actually starting to piss me off....

Day 27:  A letter to your readers. This was supposed to post yesterday but I was having too much fun with my little schmuffin to bother with the computer.  I really wanted to make sure I posted it, though, because I think it's important. Dear Readers, You have no idea how much you mean to me.  I sincerely mean that.  I started this blog almost two years ago as a way to document my pregnancy.  I had no idea it would turn into my outlet.  I had no idea how many people I would come to know.  I had two followers for the longest time.  Then somehow I moved up to ten.  Then I started linking up and putting myself out there more and I now have 79 of you wonderful followers.  It may not be much as compared to some of the bigger blogs but I thank every single one of you for following me.  I appreciate the fact that you want to read what it is I have to write.  I appreciate all of your comments and I re...

Day 28:  Only pictures.      

  Dear Baby Girl,  the weather is warmer and you want to be outside all the time.  That's fine.  We enjoy being outside too.  But not when it's raining.  Let's chill with the rainy day tantrums.  Dear Baby #2, only 9 more days until I get to see you again.  I can't wait for your 3D ultrasound.  I'm excited to see how your sister reacts to your little face too! Dear warmer weather, I believe that I did ask for you to show your face but I did not ask for 90 degree humidity.  That does not help my ankles one bit.  Tone it down. Dear Grey's, I miss you.  The end. Dear weekend, I'm so looking forward to you and the extra day I get with you.  We have no real plans for you so you will probably be super boring but whatever.  One less day of work is always good! Dear Oklahoma victims, my heart goes out to all of you.  I can't imagine how you all must feel with so much destruction.  I can't ima...

Day 24:  Your top three worst traits I don't always think before I speak.  I call it being blunt.  Others call it being rude.  Either way it's a gift and a curse.  I don't generally sugar coat things.  If you ask me for my honest opinion, expect my brutally honest opinion.  I have gotten better with this over the years but it's really one of those traits that never goes away.  You either love me for it or you hate me for it. I have no patience.  Like ZERO.  I never have.  If I ask my husband to do something, I expect him to do it immediately.  If he doesn't, I get mad, yell at him and do it myself.  I thought that I would be the worst Mom in the world because of my lack of patience but it turns out, kids really do help with this.  I still have my moments but I have gotten much better.  I'm stubborn.  There was one time that I threw a container of butter on the floor because my ...

I hope that you will take the time to watch every video.  Every single one is worth your time.  Make sure you have your tissues handy because these videos will make cry a river.  I find these people to be amazing.  To live their lives with such positivity even though they know they don't have much of a life left.  It really makes me think about my life and how I can be more positive.  It helps me to be more grateful for what I have.  It also makes me think, would I be this positive if this were happening to me?   Zach Sobiech - passed away May 20, 2013 from Osteosarcoma - he was 18 years old "You don't need to find out you're dying to start living." -Zach Sobiech   "Clouds" -Zach Sobiech   Christopher Aiff - 21 year old Diagnosed with Osteosarcoma - Given 6 months to 2 years to live   "Happiness is not a limited resource." - Christopher Aiff   Ryan Woods - passed away November 7, 20...

Day 23:  Things you've learned that school won't teach you How to love. How to fight.  You have to learn to choose your battles but make sure you that when you do choose, you fight hard. If you can't laugh at yourself, you won't survive. The book is always better than the movie. Treasure your family because they are the only ones that will always stand by your side. Friends come and go.  Chances are, your current friends won't be your friends in ten years. Hang out with people who inspire you. Money is not unlimited.  You are going to have work hard for what you want. You don't always get what you want. Tragedy can't be avoided. The world is a scary place. Someone always has it worse than you do. Alcohol can be very bad. Words matter. Kindness goes a long way. You can make a difference. Baby giggles are the best. Happiness is not a limited resource. (Christopher Aiff) Oh and always wear sunscreen.

This week, I'm saying so what if... I finally told the girls at daycare that Baby Girl won't be there much longer.  It was kind of sad because I know how much they all love her. I'm pretty sure that Baby Girl told me to suck it this morning on the way to daycare.  I don't know where she would have picked that up so I can't be sure that's what she said but it sure sounded like it. We have no outside toys for Baby Girl.  Nothing.  My husband built her a make-shift sand pit but we don't have any toys for her to play with.  We need to work on that since the kid wants to be outside all.the.time. I think Tim McGraw is hot hot hot!  I know if he takes his hat off it's not quite as pretty but I mean, the man is 46 years old and he looks like this?   I took Baby Girl grocery shopping with me last night and she was awesome.  She helped me put things in the cart, didn't complain once, and was even saying hi to everyone we passed...

Day 22:  Rant about something .  Get up on your soapbox and tell us how you really feel. Oh I am all over this one! So right now, my biggest issue is this little girl at daycare who is in my daughter's class.  I'll call her Tina just for privacy purposes.  There's also a boy in her music class who I'll call Tom. This little girl, Tina, is a bully.  She hits, she bites, she pushes, she pulls hair.  You name it, she does it.  Last week I watched her attack another little girl in the class and hit my daughter.  Then Friday she bit my daughter.  Hard enough that there is still a quarter size black and blue on her arm.  Monday, I watched her grab my daughter by the jacket and try to hurt her and yesterday, I watched her push my daughter from behind and knock her on her face. Excuse me? When did this kind of behavior become OK? It's really upsetting to me that this behavior is allowed to take place.  I know that the ...

Day 21:  A list of links to your favorite posts in your archives.   She's Heeeeerrrrreeee  - The announcement of my Baby Girl.  Of course this is a favorite!       First Photo Shoot  - Baby Girl's first photo shoot.  We skipped the newborn shots and went for 4, 8 and 12 month shots instead.  I loved her first shoot. We got some really great pictures!     Oh the Changes We Have Made - I love this post because it really captures how becoming a Mom has changed me in so many ways.     Fall Photos  - Her second photo shoot at 8 months was even better than the first one!     Christmas Photos  - Baby Girl's Christmas photos were the best!  She was so cute and playful for the whole shoot and we got some fantastic pictures!       Big News  - The announcement of our growing family!       The Pursuit of...

Day 20:  Get real.  Share something you're struggling with right now. Gosh...there are so many things right now. My husband works more hours than I can comprehend and I feel like a hard core single mom most of the time.  When he is home, he wants to spend time with his little girl and I want him to help me with the housework!  We have no balance. I turn 30 in exactly 12 days and all I can think about is how I've already lived a third of my life, if I'm lucky.  I feel so morbid lately but it's been on my mind so much.  Like maybe I need to go to a therapist or something. I'm bringing another baby into this world and into our house.  I am so nervous about balancing life with two kids yet all I can think about is making sure we can get a third kid in yet before it's too late!  It's this weird I-need-to-leave-as-many-kids-behind feeling that I have never had before.  Maybe it's just because of my birthday. Our house is too small an...

Day 17: A favorite photo of yourself and why I'm using a photo that I used on Day 14.     This photo was taken during Ashlyn's 4 month photo shoot.  Everything about it is perfect, well at least in my eyes it is.  I don't think I have a single photo that I love more than this one.

  Dear Baby Girl, warmer weather means really cute dresses and you have a ton of them.  I know how clumsy you are so let's just try not to fall too much outside.  I'm not looking forward to your first real boo boo. Dear Baby #2, I was actually able to take a video of your kicks yesterday.  You were jumping around in there like a crazy man!  Let's try to tone down the appetite.  I feel like a cow!  Only a few more months until we meet. Dear Grey's, you did not disappoint!  I love how you always give us great endings and tell us what's going on but still leave some cliff hangers.  I am a little disappointed by the name you chose for the Grey/Shepherd baby, though.  I was totally expecting something honoring Mark but whatever. Dear Origami Owl, so it took you three weeks to ship my necklace and then something is back ordered and you don't even have the courtesy to let me know?  I would really like to have one of...

Day 16:  Something difficult about your "lot in life" and how you're working to overcome it To be honest, I Googled 'lot in life' because wasn't completely sure what it meant.  I'm still not 100% sure I understand what it means but I'm going to do my best here.  From what I found, lot in life means your place in life.  Where are you right now, where do you want to be and how are you going to get there?  My lot in life.  Right now I work a full time job, my husband works a full time job plus some and my daughter goes to daycare every single day.  We live in a small two bedroom house that carries the smallest mortgage I've ever heard of.  We drive nice vehicles and have no car payments.  We eat out whenever we feel like it.  We buy whatever we need whenever we need it and don't hardly every worry about money. Sounds good right? I'm not complaining....but.... Our house?  It's small.  Oober small....

Day 15:  A day in the life To be completely honest, my life is pretty dam boring!  I get up each morning and get ready for work while Baby Girl either sleeps or watches some cartoons.  We eat breakfast, get her dressed and I take her to daycare.  I then spend at least 8 hours at a job I don't really like and just look forward to going home and spending time with my girl. My Mom usually picks her up from daycare so I go to my Mom's house to pick her up.  We go home, make some dinner and then play until bed time.  After bath and teeth brushing, we relax on the couch for a few minutes before sending the little one to bed.  I usually immediatly follow. Saturdays and Sundays are pretty much the same but I don't have to go to work.  I get to play with my little girl all day long.  We go to her music class, take walks, blow bubbles, watch movies, take naps and I try to do some cleaning and grocery shopping. The highlight of every day is the...