No I'm not pregnant.
But I want to be.
I have a five month old (who doesn't sleep through the night) and I want another baby. Already.
Is that weird?
I can't describe this overwhelming feeling I have. This strong desire to have another baby. It's foreign to me. I only ever wanted two kids. A girl and a boy. That's what I wanted. That's what I got. So why do I want more?
I just can't explain it. The kicks in my belly. The growth of a little human. The baby belly. The excitement of delivery.
I want another baby in my belly. I need to have another baby. It seriously makes me cry to think that I might be done with kids because I don't want to be. It makes me cry to think of myself pregnant because I want that so badly.
I have had two very difficult pregnancies and two very difficult deliveries.
My daughter was induced two weeks early because of pre-eclampsia. I was in labor for 22 hours. I pushed for 2 hours just to get her low enough to be sucked out by the vacuum. Once she was out, I had post-birth hemorrhaging. It was scary.
My son came on his own three days before his due date. I was in labor a total of five hours with that kid. The labor came on so fast I didn't know what to expect. My contractions were 2 1/2 minutes apart when they started. There was no gradual increase it was just BAM! His heart rate kept dropping and the doctor was scared that his cord was wrapped around his neck. I may have pushed for a half hour before he was low enough to be sucked out by the vacuum as well.
These kids have scared us from the start but they have both been healthy and beautiful and I recovered well from both deliveries.
I'm seriously scared that the third kid is just going to fall out! We are moving a bit further away from the hospital so I am a little nervous about not making it to the hospital next time around. I'm nervous about what could happen since we've had so many problems in the past. Having two is hard enough so of course I'm worried about adding another child to the mix.
But I still want to.
Do any of you have this urge or have you had this urge? Am I the only crazy baby lady out there?
I have had two very difficult pregnancies and two very difficult deliveries.
My daughter was induced two weeks early because of pre-eclampsia. I was in labor for 22 hours. I pushed for 2 hours just to get her low enough to be sucked out by the vacuum. Once she was out, I had post-birth hemorrhaging. It was scary.
My son came on his own three days before his due date. I was in labor a total of five hours with that kid. The labor came on so fast I didn't know what to expect. My contractions were 2 1/2 minutes apart when they started. There was no gradual increase it was just BAM! His heart rate kept dropping and the doctor was scared that his cord was wrapped around his neck. I may have pushed for a half hour before he was low enough to be sucked out by the vacuum as well.
These kids have scared us from the start but they have both been healthy and beautiful and I recovered well from both deliveries.
I'm seriously scared that the third kid is just going to fall out! We are moving a bit further away from the hospital so I am a little nervous about not making it to the hospital next time around. I'm nervous about what could happen since we've had so many problems in the past. Having two is hard enough so of course I'm worried about adding another child to the mix.
But I still want to.
Do any of you have this urge or have you had this urge? Am I the only crazy baby lady out there?
No, you aren't the only one! I think it's normal. And the thought of being done having kids makes me cry too, and I'm not even there yet! Also, your labor/deliveries sound so much like mine - I had pre-e with Wyatt, and you know how Gwen came so fast. My plan is to go to the hospital EARLY this time!
ReplyDeleteCompletely normal! Sounds like you were born to be a mama!
ReplyDeleteI have the fever too...w/Dylan's first birthday next week, I cant help but want another little tiny baby. UGH! I don't miss the labor, the pregnancy at all, but geeze....those babies. I had a long labor, I think it was 22 hours too- I don't remember. a 5 hour labor? OMG! What a good boy. OKAY CAN WE PLEASE TALK ABOUT CORDELIA! She was the supreme?! I love it. so good, I already miss the season!
ReplyDeleteFor us. It's 2 & done. But I have friends who just don't know or have this feeling that their family just isn't complete. A good friend of men got pregnant again on purpose when her 2nd was 5/6 mo & she said that adding another baby was pretty seamless!
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