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It's Been Hard

Two months have passed since we lost Colson. It's been hard. There are constant reminders everywhere.  All the newborn babies and baby bumps still get me.  And his shadow box.  And his necklace.  And my baby belly that still hasn't gone away.  A song that reminds me.  A picture that I see.  A gender reveal.  So many things. Every once in a while, Ashlyn will ask me about Bryan's baby brother.  For some reason she won't call him her baby brother, maybe because she wanted a sister.  It always sends me into a state of quiet, breaking my heart that she won't know her brother. But it's also been good.  We are a much stronger family now.  We communicate better.  We are so much more patient with each other.  Our kids make us cry pretty much daily because we are just so thankful for them and their sweet souls. My husband has been so very patient with me.  There are still times that I just break down and need his help and he's always right there.  Always as

Mah Birfday

We celebrated my birthday Monday.    It was.....um....different then years past.   I was home with the kids all day.  I guess they didn't get the birthday memo because they were being less than adorable for me.   We went to dinner with my family where my Mom was over an hour late, my grandmother and nephew were fighting and the kids were throwing tantrums.   It was a bit of a disaster.   At least we got some cute pictures!   But we went back to my parents house and had some cake.  Ashlyn was so excited about it being my birthday but she swore it was her birthday too.  She sang to me but I think she was really singing to herself!  She blew out one of the candles too.   Then we watched the kids pretty much go crazy from all of the sugar.    Then we went home and got the kids to bed.  We sat on our front porch with a drink and that was that.   It certainly was not a perfect day.  But is any day really perfect?    We still had fun and got to s